A feeling from the past

Today I really enjoyed myself thru the day.
We went Jusco for Singing, Greenbox !
We have a lots of fun when singing, taking pictures, and the most important thing is, somehow I found back the feeling I have 5 years back.

It is really nice to think back wat I thought of 5 years before,
The first time I feel to like someone.
The ever first time.
But I did nothing to get wat i wanted to.

5 years back, I was a person that is not very sociable and it is becoz i somehow felt shy about it.
As time passes, I know I cannot keep on saying that I'm shy and so I cannot be a sociable person.
When I saw her, this feeling somehow poops up in no where, I wish to know her but becoz Im shy, I did not.
My shyness really keep me away from many things, I felt shy becoz I doesnt have something to admires people to view me as a nice person.

Back then 5 years ago, I was short and a bit "fat".
Becoz of that, I feel that : " nah, such face cant have much new friends ".
but after sometime, I never like the one I knew myself before.
Now Im of course better than before, or i can use the word "handsome" XD than before.
I think so myself.

back to the point,
becoz of shy, I knew her very late and she have already occupied.
It is the first time I wanted to have a relationship with a girl, and becoz of that, I duno wat to do, wat to say, or even wat to think about.

Everyday I just kinda look at her, and wish someday we can be together.
but that is before I knew her.

Thanks to my friends yew and KY,
I finally get to know her until now.
Best friends !!!
But I dun wan to be just friends...

As I know, I just broke up with someone, I settle down myself pretty fast coz I already expected it.
But after today, I really know that I cant be alone like this, I felt something is missing in my life, and now I know wat i missing of.
I cant stop thinking of her sometimes.
She can make me feel so nice and relaxing when we meet.
Even the problems I having can suddenly somehow washed away.

But unfortunately, she was occupied until today.
Such a nice girl, I do not expect that she was not in a relationship with some other boys.
She act as a very good friend infront of me, but I never ever ask her about her view in me.
For all these years, really, NEVER ....
As for why, I really duno, but i wish she can tell me.
She dint not sit infront of the computer all day long.
The only way if i wana ask her is thru phone or SMS.
but if I suddenly ask her such questions, will she finds out my doing?

Back in those years, everyone know that I have interest in her, Yew,Ky everyone knows that.
But all I did is sitting away from her and see her from a distance, sometimes I feels so sad, becoz I cant have her in me.
But sometimes, I saw her smile, well, tat isnt very bad thou...

NoW !!! she still having a relationship with another boy.
So wat can i do?
My friends once told me to wait,
Should I do that ???

How I know if she is interested in me ???
Does she know that I have a crush on her ???
Will she accept me if I ask for a relationship ???

I dun wana waste my time and miss the chance to be with her everytime, I must grab each oppurtunity...
But in the end, will I get wat i wan ??




I'm just a normal, not very handsome and not very good looking, but arent too bad.
Will a girl like her likes me ?
likes me ? likes me not ?










People who knew me 5years ago, will know who I have a crush on...